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Rupture and Repair With Your Child

Jan 18
3 min

Rupture and Repair With Your Child

Our children lead us to places inside of us that have not been fully processed. Places within us where trauma is unresolved. When they hit certain ages and stages of development, they will activate unworked trauma in a parent from that stage. To me, this is both painful and such a gift to get to meet these places in myself on deeper levels. 🙇‍♀️❤️ The place for me that gets incredibly activated and triggered in my relationship with Anaiya is when I feel she’s not listening

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What Do Children Need When They're Dysregulated?

Dec 9, 2022
1 min

What Do Children Need When They're Dysregulated?

What do children need most when they’re dysregulated? When their emotions are full. Their upsets big. Their anger intense. They need to know we are right here with them. That we’re not going away. That their big feels have room to be here. And we will be here with them. They need to feel this. Empty words of reassurance fall flat if we’re not also embodied in this. What does that look like? A cultivated capacity to be with our own big emotions. An open heart of empathy and a

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Learning Unconditional Love

Nov 18, 2022
2 min

Learning Unconditional Love

“Mama I love Kintu but his behavior of peeing on our cushions is not ok” We are happily welcoming our newest family member… Kintu the cat 😻 He came into our lives in the most magical of ways. He’s a super snuggler and great with dogs and children. So much about him feels so right. And we’re having some challenges around his peeing practices. While this could be a whole post on the journey about the cat’s elimination choices that’s not what this post is about. It’s about thi

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Another Stretch of the Umbilical Cord

Nov 9, 2022
2 min

Another Stretch of the Umbilical Cord

This week was another stretch of the umbilical cord. I’m deeply grateful for all the adults in my daughter’s life. So many loving and caring humans offering healthy imprinting into her system. I’ve also noticed it feels time for some more consistent children in her life. This week she started part-time daycare where she is with three other kids and a woman that is a total loving mama bear. 🐻 As we packed up her lunch last night and woke up this morning, earlier than our usua

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Holding Healthy Masculine as a Mother

Oct 19, 2022
2 min

Holding Healthy Masculine as a Mother

The healthy masculine holds an agenda free container for the arising dynamism of the feminine. Let me be clear here, that I’m not referring to men and women, or gender or sex. I’m speaking to the energetics that divine masculine (yang) and divine feminine (yin) contain. I believe we all are the holy union of these two polarities, regardless of what gendered body we choose. ☯️ One of the awakened qualities of the masculine is a container. One that is not stagnant, but ever-pre

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Seeing the World Through the Eyes of my Daughter

Oct 13, 2022
1 min

Seeing the World Through the Eyes of my Daughter

We went on a hike to Brainard Lake recently. She was strapped on my back in one of those fancy hiking packs. Walking is just part of the adventure... She's aware of the pine cones on the ground and wanting to say hello to each tree and make physical contact with her hand. She feels the variation in textures of the bark and branches and pine needles. We walk at the pace that feels good for her so she can take in all that she is noticing. The hike is much less about moving to g

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Setting Healthy Boundaries

Oct 10, 2022
3 min

Setting Healthy Boundaries

Her demands are not intentional. Her boundary testing is not to piss me off. Her No’s are not trying to push my buttons. She’s not attacking me when she hits my face again after I’ve told her no. I notice sometimes I take it personally and I get sad and angry that she’s hurting me. It’s not personal. In fact it has nothing to do with me. It’s her feeling lots of energy in her body and needing a place to express it. It’s her discovering what’s ok in this human body. She needs

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Saying Goodbye to Caffeine

Oct 10, 2022
2 min

Saying Goodbye to Caffeine

Before pregnancy I chose to stop drinking caffeine. I didn’t drink a ton of it, but it was definitely something I felt some dependency with and I knew I didn’t want to drink it while pregnant. This is one of the best choices, for my system, that I could’ve done. I’ve continued to stay off it. Though I do drink raw cacao, which has Theobromine in it, it’s a heart-opener for me and doesn’t overstimulate me. I’ve tried a few sips of caffeine recently and what I notice is it real

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I Want My Body and Life Back

Feb 14, 2020
5 min

I Want My Body and Life Back

I want my body and my life back. That’s how I feel in this moment. The constant grabbing at my boobs to nurse or hanging on my body. Not wanting to be put down or held. So begins the agitation cycle between my baby and I. No one started it, no one is causing it deliberately, but wow, does it feed on itself. Lately my nervous system feels super sensitive and jagged and when Anaiya is in a phase of wanting and needing to feed throughout the night to help her sleep and grow, I n

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The Innate Intelligence That We Are

Feb 8, 2020
3 min

The Innate Intelligence That We Are

Witnessing Anaiya learn to trust her body wisdom in new ways. We moved into a new home this month with a full flight of stairs. Anaiya has never seen or explored stairs before or seen any baby climb stairs before. She crawled up to them and immediately reached her arms up to crawl up them. One by one she climbed up, effortlessly using the wisdom of her body. When she reached the top, I could feel her satisfaction. But she didn’t stop there. She turned around and peered down a

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Healthy Integration Into the Community

Jan 8, 2020
4 min

Healthy Integration Into the Community

I’ve been going dancing on Sunday mornings to Movement Mass (one of Boulder’s ecstatic dance jams) with Anaiyana since she was about 3 months old. Ear muffs on and popped into her baby carrier, I move with her close to my body. Often there are friends there every week who she has begun to recognize and happily let’s them hold her while I dance, as well as my beloved who also eagerly carries her so I can get some baby-free dance on. On New Year’s Day we went to the dance and s

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The Return of My Moon Blood

Dec 24, 2019
3 min

The Return of My Moon Blood

My moon blood returned last week. A friend asked me if this feels like the end of my postpartum time. I noticed feeling such sadness in that question, not totally ready for it to be done. This baby time has been so precious. I’ve been fully aware it will not last forever and I’ve savored all of it. Even the moments of overwhelm and frustration. This phase of babyhood is so sacred, witnessing and supporting Anaiya finding her way again as a human. It’s felt so natural to attun

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Putting Herself To Sleep

Dec 14, 2019
2 min

Putting Herself To Sleep

Typically, my nighttime routine consists of nursing my baby, often bouncing her on my mini rebounder (a total must have for new mamas!). This has been what’s worked for her as the rocking and feeding guide her into a peaceful slumber. And now, with her natural timing developing more and more each day, a new way is emerging. We get in bed together and she’ll usually nurse first and then, as I lay with her, she flops her body all around. She’ll sit up and then lay down and the

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Anaiya's First Fever

Dec 6, 2019
2 min

Anaiya's First Fever

Anaiya crossed a new initiation into this human experience last week. Her first opportunity to strengthen her immune system, as her intelligent body navigated a fever and sickness. She clung to my body as she traversed worlds, not fully being here. Sleeping lots, when she did open her eyes she seemed so dazed and confused as to what was happening to her. Lacking the energy to move much, her discomfort expressed in cries and soft whimpering and moans as she slept. Her uninhibi

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She Is My Mirror

Nov 11, 2019
3 min

She Is My Mirror

We are such reflections of one another. Anaiyana has been going through some sleep shifts where she’s wanting to feed every 1-2 hours in the night and stay snuggled close. If I roll away she inches her way towards my body wanting to be in physical contact. There is something so precious about this need for contact and comfort. I also notice after multiple nights (weeks) of this, this is naturally impacting me getting deeper sleep, leaving me feeling more tired and not able to

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Secure Attachment Through Attunement

Oct 24, 2019
2 min

Secure Attachment Through Attunement

Secure attachment isn’t just about co-sleeping, breastfeeding and baby-wearing. Creating a securely attached child is about attuning to their needs. Yes, these practices help me intuit what my baby needs because I am in close contact with her, but it is my ability to attune to her that is supporting the secure bond between us and within her own sense of self. My capacity for attunement arises from my ability to attune to my own self as well. It requires a fluency with my own

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Attuning To Your Baby

Sep 18, 2019
3 min

Attuning To Your Baby

I’m transitioning back into working with clients again after maternity leave. I feel so inspired by how the transformation I’ve been through in becoming a mother is directly affecting the evolution of my offerings as a healer. I’ve found myself naturally becoming a holistic source of support in the areas of gestation and parenting, and really enjoying it. So I’d like to announce that, along with working with all types of clients as usual, my healing work is now opening up mor

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Developing Emotional Fluency

Sep 3, 2019
2 min

Developing Emotional Fluency

Developing emotional fluency for you, and your baby. During pregnancy I often felt like an exposed nerve. Everything was heightened and expanded, including my range of emotions. I noticed about every six weeks or so another layer of grief would move through me for a few days to a week. I became friends with grief. I did not shy away from it. I allowed myself to grieve the places that had believed I was doing this journey of mamahood with a supportive partner. I grieved the he

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Fleeting Moments

Aug 18, 2019
2 min

Fleeting Moments

Her first tooth. Anaiya’s first tooth just broke through to the surface. She’s been gnawing on her hands, my fingers, others fingers, fabrics and anything else she can grasp and pull to her lips. I’ve felt it coming, brushing my finger across her gums for weeks, waiting for that moment when it would push from below to the surface. This bone growing in her mouth. These bones growing in her body, her natural development unfolding. This moment hits me with significance. Never

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A Mother's Love

Aug 13, 2019
3 min

A Mother's Love

A mother’s love is like no other No one could even begin to explain Until crossing the threshold of birthing my child into the world. The love for a partner, a sibling, a parent, a friend Falls short of this endless love Pouring out of the mother’s heart For this precious being who chose me A mother’s love is like no other A celestial star being traveling the cosmos to come to Earth Discovering this new body Offering you support and nurturance As your senses awaken And your

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