Updated: Sep 13, 2022
No one could possibly explain to me the amount of love I would feel for my child. It’s a love that grows continuously, my heart often swelling as more love cascades through me as our connection blossoms.
I loved being pregnant and didn’t want it to end. I remember my wise friend, who has two children of her own, mischievously smiling at me while I was pregnant, like she was sitting on the best kept secret. A secret that would only be revealed once I birthed my baby. And I get it now. It is a love that touches and unearths places in my heart that didn’t know this love. It is an energy that consumes me at times and all I can do is let the river of joyful tears wash down my face.
"I remember my wise friend who, has two children of her own, mischievously smiling at me while I was pregnant, like she was sitting on the best kept secret. A secret that would only be revealed once I birthed my baby. And I get it now."
My body viscerally remembered the birth journey last week as my sweet baby completed her first cycle around the sun. As her birth time of 10 AM rolled in, I held her in my arms, dancing and singing, laughing at the abundance of love and joy I have with her. Her bright eyes glistening up at me, her smile so big it makes her head shake. I felt us resting inside of a boundless love, an infinite relationship that far surpasses our human bodies. I get to be your mama, my beloved Anaiyana! I won the cosmic jackpot when you chose to incarnate through me.
Thank you my beloved angel~ for the transformative pregnancy that guided me further into my true Self and prepped me to be able to truly meet and see you, this epic and unpredictable first year of life together, and all the ways you’ve orchestrated the life you want and need and the people who you want near you, as our family.
To all the support on all the levels that continues to guide us, thank you. Thank you to my friends and family who’ve loved us both so fiercely. And thank you to my beloved Mackenze, who chooses to show up daily in Love, care, and devotion to both me and Anaiya. We are so blessed. And we choose you right back again and again.