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Developing emotional fluency for you, and your baby. During pregnancy I often felt like an exposed nerve. Everything was heightened and expanded, including my range of emotions. I noticed about every six weeks or so another layer of grief would move through me for a few days to a week. I became friends with grief. I did not shy away from it. I allowed myself to grieve the places that had believed I was doing this journey of mamahood with a supportive partner. I grieved the he

There are some ways in which doing this journey of mamahood solo feels much easier. I don’t have to negotiate my parenting style and choices with anyone. My baby gets ALL of me. All my presence and devotion. All my love and care. The bond that continues to develop between us is total and complete. What a blessing. And I can feel where it’s more challenging. For example I just took my first solo shower in over two months. We bathe together regularly so I’m getting clean, but t

The decision to become a single mama. I didn’t plan this journey of mamahood intending to be a single mama, but three months into my pregnancy I was crushed with the reality that my partner was unable to support me in this huge transformation. I made the choice to leave. I made the choice to choose the unknown because it felt safer than staying in my current situation. Did I know this was how my story would unfold when we were consciously conceiving this child? Perhaps I did,